25th Wedding Anniversary present - Family Photo Shoot at the Bridal Gallery

Sharing a few pictures in the albums...

1. Wedding Photo in white bridal gown
(My dad took better pictures when he wasn't looking at the camera. Seriously...)

2. Wedding photo in Chinese Traditional gown
(I really wanted this picture to be placed at our living room but my dad, due to his ego I think, wanted a more formal picture)

3. Family photo I
(Notice my younger brother's eyes looking elsewhere)

4. Family Photo II
(This is soooo like the "Tang Som Fong Pou" - TVB drama family portrait. Haha!)

5. Siblings photo
(Notice my younger brother's shoes are slightly too big... cos the shoes weren't his to begin with!)

6. Family photo III
(My elder brother looks like he's motivated to reach the yearly sales quota! Haha!)
7. Family Portrait IV

8. Family Portrait V
(Notice that I'm taller... I was standing on a piece of wood...)

9. Family Portrait VI

10. Family Portrait VII
(My dad's pants a little too short?!)

11. Family Portrait VIII

There were of course more pictures taken and I don't intend to put them all here in my blog. Drop by my house if you're interested to see more. Despite the minor errors every now and then, we were all satisfied with the outcomes of the photos.

P/s - Now I know what to expect when I take my wedding pics in the future. *giggles*

Many blog ENTRIES in a blog ENTRY... updated...

Yes... Yes... Again, I have yet to update my blog. I really really have to buck up. Should put it into my list of Year 2008 resolution haha...

Let's start with wishing everybody a "Happy New Year". May Year 2008 welcome the best of events for all! As for me, I'm looking forward to a deeper understanding of myself and knowing what's best for me in all aspects including my career, hopefully... Other than that, may my love life with Mr. Right sail smoothly. Of course, may my family members be healthy and wise (haha)...

Well, Let's begin with my 1st post:

15th Dec to 17th Dec 2007 - Family Trip to Cameron with other families

Going back to Cameron after a few years was a refreshing experience. The last time I've been there was during my psych camp with Yi, Fang and Val before we left for the States. Moreover, the place that we stayed in this time was nearby the hostel that we previously stayed in. I remember that there was an incident where this boy at the camp went drunk on the last night (alcohol was a No-no!) and those who were involved in it, including those who saw or heard had a small meeting the next day. It was quite a group psychology kinda experience... Anyways, I had a chance to rewear my BSU sweatshirt and it proved its quality and purpose as warmth was exactly what it provided me with. Unfortunately, I had a great fall down the stairs on the 1st evening when we were all excited to go to their nigth market. Actually, it was already a 2nd fall caused by the same heels that made me slip once at my mom's office's stairs. The sole has already lost its "flower" haha... So, again I slipped, and this time a harder fall. It was darn painful but I had to pretend that it was no big deal as it was only the first day and I didn't want my parents to be worried sick. Next thing I knew, I had a big bruise on my left knee and a bigger bruise (bigger than my palm size) on my left thigh. My sis deleted the picture but I still managed to save 1 in my phone.

One memorable thing was our trip to the Boh Tea Plantation. The journey into the plantation was an eye-opener indeed. It was only 2km deep but it took us about 30 minutes to get in due to the narrow and winding road. Some parts of the road, actually most parts of it, were meant only for a single car to pass. So, we had to give and take when we saw other cars coming from the opposite direction. The view was breath-taking! Really an amazing experience! Going into the plantation was OK but coming out was worse! It started raining somewhat heavily and cars just kept coming in. I was quite pissed cos why were the cars coming in at 4pm when the place closes at 4.30pm, plus it was raining?! Anyways, we got stuck at this one part of the road when it was totally stuck - too narrow a road and cars from both sides. Then, there was this "smart" man who came down and knocked on our window to move on when he couldn't even see what was happening in front. He thought we were stuck cos we didn't dare to drive down further. Gosh, such shallow minded! Thank god we managed to get out of there alive and well. I was also worried for my parents at the same time cos their car was bulkier than ours (comparing a Mercedes and an Innova) and they came out later, alive and well too...

It was a nice trip overall and almost all our meals were home prepared, as in the aunties brought and bought food there to cook. However, the bomb dropped on the last day when I woke up in the morning feeling really bad about my tummy and I ended having a bad time in the toilet. Once before breakfast, again after breakfast and another while going down Cameron. Can you imagine going down the winding mountain with no toilet to be found? I had to hold my stomach for about 30 minutes. At one point when I thought I couldn't hold it any longer, I just told my brother to stop at the next orang asli house for me to borrow their toilet (which is like a small atap house). Lucky for us, there was a small sundry shop while going down and I thought I saw this public stop next to it. So, instead of going into the sundry shop I insisted on going to the public toilet (duh!) but guess what? The public toilet turned out to be a surau. Haha! And yes, I ended up doing my business in the surau's toilet. Not only me, so did my sis and younger brother. Haha...

24th & 25th Dec - Christmas Eve & Christmas
To make things short and simple, my Christmas Eve and Christmas day were spent with my darling boyfriend (of course!) and Christmas Eve was quite a memorable one cos it was his cousin's wedding day. The bridegroom and bride were both young and they looked so nice together. The bride's from Ipoh and she's so darn pretty. They had a live band performance (those that you see in pubs) and almost everything was in English (cos they had English education background). Took quite a lot of pictures that night too. Will be uploading them up on facebook once I get them from hc.

12th Jan Parents' 25th Wedding Anniversary Present - Bridal Album

This is a special entry. My sis and I scouted around for the best package and we found one near the KO specialist (near the closed Ocean). The lady was very experienced and she knew exactly what we wanted. Btw, D* Va* Bridal Gallery had really good designs but they were tooooo expensive, too far from our allocated budget. So for anyone who has enough budget and you're interested to take quality modern pictures, you can try that shop. Not to say that I wasn't satisfied with our shop - they took really good pictures and we had a variety to choose from. The picture taking day took about 5-6 hours and my parents were dead tired. My dad lost focus and just couldn't manage to give a single smile anymore. The photographer was good. He made us do a lot of poses and had his own ideas of the best positions. The only thing was, he was too straight forward a person - he can be damn blunt at times. Anyways, the outcomes were satisfying. Everyone liked the photos and they came out great!

Sept '07 semester finally ended...Part 2

First semester of Masters of Counseling officially ended on 10th December! Actually the exams ended on 5th Dec but Dr.Goh extended the assignment due all the way to the 11th Dec. Anyways I finished it a day earlier and had a half day of shopping in Bangsar with my sis and my mom the next day. It was heck jam in KL, especially with the heavy rain. My dad was super pist already cos he was the one who fetched us all the way there... Oops...

I have no idea whether I'll manage to score well for my Development paper cos I only prepared for 2 essays when I was supposed to prepare for 3 essays. Not that I didn't do extra preparation, it's just that the extra turned out to be the wrong chapter. I only had the last 10 minutes to prepare for my 3rd exam, which was a confirmed No-no. So, I went in unprepared and just crapped whateva I could think of for my third essay. Cross my fingers that I won't score that bad!!!

My new sem's gonna start on the 2nd week of January and I'm still juggling my time with work and studies. I don't know how long I can cope with the hecticness. However, I do intend to let go my job to find another to accommodate to my studies very very soon, probably before CNY. Will have to think about it thoroughly during the upcoming holidays next week. Yup, I have about 10 days Christmas break next week. Kinda cool... Hehe...

Sept '07 semester almost... at end...Part 1

Why did I say that the semester is almost at end although I've finished my finals last Monday and Wednesday? Well, I have one more assignment/ essay to hand in next Monday and I'm not even halfway through. I think I'm the type that works better under pressure but I know I have to overcome that weakness considering that I'm super prone to stress.

I had my presentation for Development Accross Lifespan on 28th Nov (Wed) and it was quite a long draggy yet funny experience. I was informed that the presentation for each group was roughly 10 minutes, and only 1 presenter for each group. So, Fang and I made a deal and she would prepare the power point, and I present our paper. Un/ Fortunately for us, we were the last group to present. Now, this was both the draggy and funny part. The first group had everyone presenting and it took about 20 minutes. The following group too had everyone presenting and it dragged on for 30 minutes. The third group, however, only had 1 presenter and it took about 30 minutes also. The 4th had all presenting and it dragged all the way to 40 minutes. Break was after that. I took the chance to ask how the presentation was supposed to be and they replied saying 15-20 minutes per group and optional for number of presenters. I was like SHIT! 15-20 minutes?! All I prepared was for 10 minutes. How the hell was I going to drag? Then, I felt slightly comforted that the other 2 groups said theirs were very short and needed to be dragged longer but I soon found out that their claims were untrue. They took about 20 minutes to finish. At last, it was out turn. The funny part was only the lecturer knew of our group's existence, our fellow mates didn't! They started packing at the end of the 2nd last group and were surprised to see us preparing! They even apologized for not noticing us. Haha...

Our topic was on HUMOR, so, i started the presentation with a "sex" joke:

A 90-yr old man announced his intention to marry a 30-yr old girl. After being advised by many, he finally went to the hospital.
The old man told the medical officer, "My friends and family told me to have my body checked, esp my sex organs, when I told them that I was going to marry a young lady."
The medical officer said, "OK then. Show me your sex organs."
The old man stuck out his tongue and showed his middle finger.

My joke was pretty simple, though a little inappropriate... Unfortunately, less than a quarter of the class understood our joke. I remember seeing a man putting his thumbs up and saying good joke! Haha... I think I did well for the presentation. I felt good after it, at least. The good thing was our presentation probably left a recency effect on the listeners. Plus, it was time to go home - everyone was obviously awake by then. Haha...

That was the end of all my classes this Sept '07's semester!

~Happy Birthday To Me~

Tanti auguri a te
Tanti auguri a te
Tanti auguri a te
Tanti auguri a te.... (Birthday song in Italian)

Congratulations to me!

I would like to thank all of you who wished on this aupicious day. Thank you very much!

Unfortunately, for me, I've lost my sweet voice on my birthday. My present, that's what my mom said...

Also, I got an mc to rest at home.

Don't even know whether it's good or bad news... Haha...
Sick on birthday?! Not working on birthday?!

*Coughing badly as I'm blogging*

Occupational hazard, maybe?

Anyways... thanks again!

p/s - To dearest Darling, remember to compensate o! Haha...

Coping with work and studies...

Where is the pressure coming from? Time management would probably be my biggest problem. I suppose every minute counts. There aren't a lot of assignments but they're definitely big assignments, involving much research and continuous thinking, of course not forgetting the ever paraphrasing, citation and referencing. Constant studying and revising, which I hardly have the time to do...

My days of classes are very tiring, usually waking up with puffy eyes the next day. I don't sleep very late. I try to get about 7-8 hours of sleep everyday but I'm still tired...

I remember during the last assignment due, I was practically dead. Hardly concentrating or contributing to my job. I had a bad headache attack, nausea etc. Bad bad working week. Totally not on par...

Let's see how I'll fare during the next assignment due which one is exactly on the day of finals while the other is a week before finals.

I don't know how well I can cope for long...

Another century...

I don't even remember the last time that I logged in and posted a blog. The thing is that I'm quite sensitive towards facing the monitor for a whole long period of time. So, I tend not to stay online for long. Only comes online when I need to e.g. finding pictures for kids.

Anyways, I'm still working in Cosmotots. Yes, I still am. Have not left after almost 3 months. By the end of this week, I'll be a confirm (hopefully...)
Recently, mentors have had their classes rotated, including myself of course and I'm still adapting. I would say, not very good at it though because the kids are much wilder. Then again, there are those few who just happens to grip you unintentionally. I have a "favorite" kid in every class of mine. And one of my favorites is a chubby 5 yr old boy, who's super smart and cute and innocent yet mischievous. Got to understand that he's still a kid, so it's good to preserve some childlikeness in him. It's just so hard to resist his "attractiveness". All that innocence. I remember having the kids compete to finish a task of finding things in the class and I mentioned I wanted 3 pieces of rubbish. However, not being able to get any, this boy just grabbed the dustbin and brought it all the way front for me to check. Haha... Smart eh? He's also a thinking boy who has once asked me about why do humans exist even after the dinosaurs have extinct? I seriously had trouble answering that or did I just evaded his question? Haha... He talked about the altantuya case as well to my colleague. Told you he was smart! Love smart kids who just blow me off!

I've also recently resumed my Masters in Counseling Psychology in HELP. Although it has only been a mere 2 weeks, I could feel the "difference" between the Malaysian and American's education system. Somehow, I felt that my senior yr as an undergraduate was more independent compared to my masters program now. It could just be me being all bias etc. Or it's understandable that half the class didn't have background in psych, so, there's still a lot of lecturing. I'm not discriminating. In a way, it's good because it refreshes what we've learnt before, especially 90% of it would be buried deep in the memories already. As usual, Dr.Goh's class is still as captivating as before. As for the other, I don't really want to comment much. She's an experienced person and probably an expert at what she does, but I would assume not in lecturing. Sometimes, Fang and I would feel that her examples aren't very "accurate". Not that they're inaccurate, it's just that they're phrased inappropriately. It would have been easier to understand if they were phrased otherwise... Well, I do not want to be the person poking at her everytime during class. So, it's sometimes a dilemma of whether to approach or not. Maybe it's just good that we act deaf-mute once in a while. Did going overseas made a difference in my sense of assertiveness? In my opinion, it most likely did... May not be useful all the time, but I'm glad I acquired this skill, doesn't matter whether I got it from US or Malaysia...

Btw, I had a haircut too last, last Saturday. A really short one, somewhere around my neck - bangs haircut. I've had mixed reactions. My kids really dislike it (almost all said ugly, kids say the darnest thing!) buy I've got adults who said that it suited me well. Hc hates it nonetheless, haha... It'll grow, don't worry...

Nowadays, my life revolves around work, work and study... My colleagues are my circle of friends. I miss my friends. Thinking about what Hc said yesterday, it's actually quite true that besides him being my main solitary person to confide in, there's hardly anyone now that I really communicate to. Not saying that I've shut myself away from people, it's just that I don't share with people as much as I used to anymore. Probably cos I don't hang out with friends as much as I used to anymore.

Life goes on...

Ultimate goal in life: To become a siu lai lai whose main responsibility revolves around bringing up my own kids.

Hehe...

~A Battle of Piano in Secret~

Beautiful battle! Really salute both of them! Sadly the video's a bit "jerky"... Do not doubt it! It's Jay playing the pieces!

Long long update...

It's been more than a month since I last visited my own blog. Not that I was super duper busy... Just that I'm so sensitive towards facing computers nowadays that I'm worried I'll get headache whenever I face the cumbersome monitor. Hc has just recently diagnosed me with tension headache which is related to inability to release stress, therefore, resulting in bad headache...

For updates...

I'm currently working in a Child Centre in Klang. It's not a kindergarten, neither is it a tuition centre. It focuses mainly on English and kids come to expand their minds (I hope...) Have been working there for only a month. Still learning about their teaching methods. Still undergoing training at the moment. But training is always on, I think...

There, I get to see and experience different type of kids, from good to bad, cute michievous to horribly mischievous, almost any type, I would say. There's of course my pretty boy there. I think I consciously or unconsciously pay more attention to him. Haha... But he is one good and smart boy, so I guess no harm done. There are those who just get on your nerve. I was told that I'm fierce. Well, I expect highly from the kids, always pushing them to strive for the best, trying to bring their potential out. Sounds really idealistic right? Haha... Kids who don't put in effort really annoys me. I know they can do more but it's like they're giving up without even trying. It's fun and interesting but when things don't go the way I think they're supposed to (that's when the kids get on my nerves), it's really frustating. But I'll be ok after that. It's just during class where I need to be flexible and adapt to various situations, especially when every kid is different...

Besides work, I intend to continue my studies soon. In what? None other than counseling psychology. Really considered clinical psychology but course not offered in Malaysia. If anyone has any clue of where I can take up courses on art and play therapy, please please please do let me know!

Latte has improved in her potty training! So happy! Yay!

Resignation accepted

I have resigned... officially on the 17th June 2007.

I handed in my resignation letter on the 8th and I worked till 17th. By right, it was a one week notice but I voluntereed to work till the 17th because I felt that I needed to help where ever I can, at least until that Sunday's event.

Actually, I thought of handing in the letter on the 11th, after the ISO training but on the 7th, I was told to stay in the office and not attend the training for following up purposes (too many things to do). So, I made up my mind to give in earlier since there were no more training opportunities to attend.

I rushed to buy white envelopes that Friday morning, wanting to reach the office earlier than my manager. Opened her locked room and put right on top of her desk. At about 9++am, my manager called me and I knew what it was going to be about. The first thing she asked me was "Is it so tough working here?" I told her "Well, I'm not leaving because of the job, I'm leaving because of different interest". Then, we continued talking about my dreams and what I had in mind to do next etc. I told her that I intended to study (which I really do, but probably not till the intake is open haha... but for leaving purposes I had to bring forward the date that I would be starting my course - July? haha...) Anyway, we talked for a while and I just continued with my work soon after.

By lunch time, my manager asked me to have lunch together. I agreed and as expected, she tried persuading me to stay during that time. I was adamant to leave althought I did thought of staying to help part time till the event in July ends. She told me that Frankie (another manager) knows about my bomb and they were trying to think of ways to make me stay. Just shortly after that, my colleague messaged me, saying that my resignation news spread very fast and that people were asking him about it. The thing that made it funny was I handed in the resignation in the office and none knew except for both me and my manager. On the other side (training, which involves about 70% of the Office staffs) knew about it. How fast do rumours spread? Or in this case, true news spread? Haha...

My manager left about 3-4pm, leaving me alone in the office (alone as in my department). I really had nothing much to do besides updating the action plans and following up from time to time, or even coordinating finalized documents from the office and the training side. So, other colleagues and I chit chatted around while waiting for the clock to strike 6pm!

*Story to be continued...*

Shih Tzu at home...

I have a Shih Tzu at home!

Yes... Yes... I know how I use to say that my parents do not agree with having pets (besides fish) at home...

Well, I guess they agreed this time, thinking that we're old enough to take good care of our pet dog.

It all started with my younger brother, abi, who was super enthusiastic on getting a pet dog. He did quite a wholesome of research online, of what dog breed, etc. Showing them to my brother & mother every now & then, asking for opinions of which dog would be best.

Finally, he stumbled upon a friend whose friend is intending to sell off their pet Shih Tzu. He got detailed information and was very keen, bugging our lives almost everyday to proceed with keeping a pet dog.

So, I told him to prepare a proposal, with objectives & budget in it. Anticipate the risks that we're going to face. The poo, the pee, the food, the bacteria, the smell etc.

Abi was dead serious about it that he asked for a sample of proposal from me & so I did. I passed to him the proposals that I used for my work. Of course, he couldn't understand a few terms here & there e.g. collaterals, expenditures. Haha...

Anyway, he prepared one. Probably isn't the most proper & neatest of all but it was indeed good effort. He even added possible profit through selling of puppies in the "objective" part.

Not to forget, in my trip to Malacca to celebrate my grandma's birthday, we saw people exhibitioning & selling dogs at Jonker Street, which triggered us to feel like having one for ourselves.

After amending the proposal every now & again, we finally set last Sunday (10/06/07) to see the dog at his friend's friend's house. Upon seeing the dog & a little persuasion from the ex-owner & of course after negotiation of price & thorough understanding of the dog's "habits", our management (mom dearest) decided to go ahead with the idea.

So, now I have a "bitch" at home. haha... I know it sounds harsh...

I have a female dog at home. They initially named her Belle but we thought it sounded a little "ah lian/ liong". We changed her name to Latte, considering that she has white & brown color fur/hair. There were a few options before we finalized her name, from Toffey to Mocha to Cappucino. Haha...

Latte has gotten used to that name & she's quite tiao kae (jual mahal) at times. Also, she has not gotten over the potty training period. She still pees & poops around, which gets to everyone's nerves! She has gotten used to biting. Not good! Cos she broke my mom's vase while biting the plant's leaves. She played with the hiu lo (the thing to put the prayer's burning sticks - don't remember the term). Whenever, she bites around or leaves her mark behind, she gets scoldings & beatings from us allright, mainly from me, my sis & my mom (super!). Latte's one smart dog. She always show the sad, innocent, I'm sorry look when she knows she has done wrong & we're about to beat her... My maid is afraid of Latte. She runs when she saw Latte earlier & Latte thinking that my maid wants to play, ran after her! Haha...

Anyway, Latte's quietly sleeping in her cage now. WHen she's active, she can be all over the place. She hardly wants to sit in her cage. If we lock her, she'll start barking. However, when she's tired or lazy, she wouldn't even bother standing. She just lies down flat on the floor & enters her cage when we ask her to...

Vet pricing's not cheap... Brought her to trim her face hair (too long, poking her eyes) & it cost quite a bomb!

We're just obsessed with Latte!... For now... Haha...

Disappointed yet glad...

The news is out! ...

And yes... As expected... I failed...

What did I failed in? That is up to me to keep my peace...

Why did I fail? I know the reasons better than anyone else does...

Just wanted to express a little or two in my blog, that's all...

I wouldn't deny the disappointment having to know that I have not passed, after such a long wait and especially, during the last stage...

I am glad however...

Because I wouldn't want to get myself stuck in a dilemma, choosing between my interest and the "luxurious" income...

Maybe... I wasn't meant for corporate life...

Maybe... I was all the while looking for a simple life...

I just want to return to my roots... That is one thing that I'm sure of...

Thanks for those who supported me and who are still supporting me...

It's a blessing to know that so many people out there are always around when I need them...

Thank you again...

New resolution! New perspective!

After much advise & much thought... I've so far come to a new way of adjusting my life.

UOB's reply is gonna come in by coming Wednesday, to confirm whether I get the offer after almost 2 months' waiting & going through tests. In my personal opinion (seriously)... I won't get the offer cos I know how terrible i performed in the interview.
Reason 1: I was a little overconfident that I didn't do my pre-interview homework.
Reason 2: Overconfidence again cos I tot previous interviews may be good enough to prepare me for that interview.
Reason 3: Everyone's definition of easy is different (Not blaming anyone here).
Reason 4: I, myself, am not ready for that position - not ready for high management posts.
Reason 5: I fell for the interviewers' "interrogation". Not that they were mean or strict or anything, they're extremely nice ppl who are thinking from their point of view. So, its natural that the questions they ask make sense. Unfortunately, for me, there was a question or two that hit my most vulnerable points. Questions that even I, couldn't answer myself. What else could it be? My question of studying or working... Whether getting a Masters is something that I want so badly? DUH!! Where am I going to be in 10 yrs time? I know usually in interviews ppl can produce huha answers like I wanna be a big manager by that time etc. But it was very hard for me to portray myself in that way cos I think deep down inside me, I haven't seen that part of myself... It just hasn't crossed my mind do I wanna be in a high post 10 yrs down the road... Very subtle thoughts... The thing is I can't even see myself clearly in these 2-3 yrs time, how am I suppose to see myself in 10 yrs time? That was seriously, to me, an easy yet "poisonous" question... N stg to be told.. Towards the end of the interview in which I intended to thank the interviewers for sharing & letting me see further into the future (very very genuine thank u), I suddenly broke down... I just couldn't hold my self back... Well, according to Hc, the issue has been in my head for quite a while, so wheneva i talk about it, it easily leads on to emotions. So... there it goes... I've shown the interviewers the last thing that I should have... Understand now why i won't get the job?! Hahaha...

I've stayed on a principal for a while now - "If i don't believe in it myself, how am I suppose to persuade others to believe in it too?" But ppl have said that it isn't what I believe in. It is what the consumers or those who need it (e.g. product) to believe in it. It is true. I dont deny that. If not, the market will not prosper today. But even until now, it's very hard for me to accept this believe - the idea that it is what ppl want that matters...

Previous wednesday gave me a knock on the head. Advertising & promotions were discussed to encourage sales of our properties. THen there were profiles of young beautiful, posed-as-models girls who were to be the usherers for the upcoming event. I was like... What? THey use girls in car shows, phones, beers, n now properties?? Is it necessary? I tot it was the product that matters. Then again, the package presentation was important too. It is nonetheless one of the most useful marketing strategies used today. Its what the consumers are looking for, therefore, the usage of girls to promote sales. Not that It's wrong. Again, it's just what the ppl want. It got me into thinking... I've learned about stereotypes, critical thinking etc. N i know, yes, it works. But base on my knowledge, I should be reducing such stereotypes n not reinforcing them! As the new generation, can't we just use other strategies than to use such ideas? What happened to critical thinking? If i were ppl out there, I'd be thinking what has pretty girls got to do with houses? The more sociable they are, the better the houses. I can confirm there is no, ZERO correlation!
I talked to hc about this & he said if thats the way i think, there's hardly anyway that I can stay in the industry. I've spoken to Yi & she agreed that working in a field that goes against our own believes & values will make both, us & the company soar. "If i don believe in the strategy, How am i suppose to convince myself to use it?" I probably sound like a naive girl thrown into the realistic society but what the heck! Sad sad society... I saw a clearer picture to what I don't want... Sales & marketing is fun in the sense that I get to meet a lot of ppl, which suits my personality & what I like. Unless the product etc. is stg I believe in, or not I'm going to have a hard time convincing ppl to buy them...

So what am I to do for now? I scouting for universities to continue my masters. I've considered counseling or early childhood education. I'll have to do research on which university, what are the courses, what can I work as, financial, n part time working. I intend to study full time n work part time in a place that is related to my studies. For now, I've decided to stay in the company till June. After that, I'm a gone person! If I can, I'd rily like to leave now but there are so many events coming up in June n if I leave, my manager will be in deep shit & I pity my new colleague... So... Will stay till end of June.

Speaking about my manager... Gosh! It's a CHALLENGE to work under her. Seriously! There is much to say about her... I don wanna start being bitchy now but the comments are endless hahaha... I will surely talk about it when we see each other again - Klang jimuis etc. Or i might just blog about it discreetly hahah...

Previously, I tot i was trapped! But... No! I allowed myself to be trapped. I was afraid to step out, afraid of what ppl may think of me, afraid of responsibilites n burden... I'm glad that I've stepped out of the shell.. N i hope things will turn out great!

Aja Aja Fighting!

To do what I should or To do what I want?

Hey ppl... Back into blogging after quite a while...

What am I doing besides work, work & work? I've come to realize that work's one of the "boring-est" thing on earth... unless, that's unless, one has found the job of his or her dreams. In my case, sad to say, it is not my dream work. Then, some may say, 90% of the time, ppl end up doing work that has either nothing to do with their course or ppl just end up not doing the work of their dreams, be it the environment, job scope, bosses etc.

Why am I not satisfied?

Come to think about it, my job scope wasn't drawn out specifically. I know Miss Sze Ee has told me to keep an eye on this issue but I didn't understand her meaning well then. I totally get it now. I am suppose to be a Sales & Marketing Exec. Much to my surprise (or may be not), I'm doing 70% admin work now. From typing to photostating to emailing, even to MAKING MILO, I've done them all... Wondering why am I still staying there?

There are few reasons why:
1. If I leave, where am I to go after that? I have not secured myself any road ahead. So I don wanna quit without knowing my direction...

2. I don't wanna be judged as a person who can't withstand the "challenges" outside. I know very well that I can be good at my job, doesn't matter whether I like it or not. I'm a person that aims to excel in the things that I do (not boasting k...)

3. I'm being exposed to a lot of skills & knowlegde. My boss passes down a lot of things for me to, forcing me to learn things that I've never imagined I would know, sometimes beyond my capacity. I get a lot of exposure in my workplace.

Seriously... Deep down inside me... I wanna do something that is related to psychology... I MISS PSYCHOLOGY! Be it child, counseling, industrial, as long as i'm doing something close to psychology, I will have strong passion & enthusiasm towards it!

I wanna continue my studies, my masters but sometimes reality just suck! Financial's a problem... Deciding which Uni to go to is another problem... Deciding what do I wanna specialize in is also a problem...

I've heard comments that I suit sales or marketing or PR but I have yet to see myself flourish in those areas. May be cos I haven't been given such opportunities. At my current working place, there aren't much sales or marketing to do. By the way, I just found out that my job scope focuses on internal marketing (research & database updating) which wasn't what I was looking for in the 1st place. I wanted something outgoing, something exciting, something vibrant... N yet now, where have I landed myself into?

Almost every single time that I've talked to Hc about, almost every single time I'll ended up dropping a tear or two (should be more than that)...

I don't wanna give up... but I don't wanna do something that I don't enjoy doing...

Yesterday, I had a new perspective... I wanted to be the person up there, sharing my experience & motivating ppl through the knowledge & skills of psychology... The word that came into my mind was INFLUENCE... I want to make a difference in people's lives through psychology... The question is HOW?

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*LOST*

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Freestyle Dance : Mirror Story - Korea (Prepix)

Wanted to post this the other day but just couldn't make it through. Anyway, another cool dance by PREPIX! Watch out for the duplicate haha...

Fei Ni Mo Shu by Tank

Sweet sweet song... As always...

Done with University, moving on to the Society's school...

Hello everyone... I haven't been blogging for quite a while & here I am now, in my working place, blogging while my manager is away (she is on MC leave today)...

Anyway here are the updates... (quite a long blog)

GRADUATION:

I had a family photo session with my graduation robe on last Saturday evening (14.4.07). It was a memorable & meaningful one cos we've never had that opportunity in the past. I asked HC to come along, which he did. Hahahaa... It was fun cos we were required to post & smile, this n that... HC & I took 2 pictures together... One thing bad though.. I looked damn damn damn ROUND with my mortarboard on! Also, I didn't have my CUm Laude string with me..

THe official graduation was the very next day organized by HELP University College in Shangri La Hotel. I went in the morning with Yi n her parents. HC couldn't/ didn't want to come due to several reasons - expensive, troublesome, timing etc. Well, I gave him a choice of family photo or graduation n he chose the former. There were a lot of ppl, most with flowers in their hands along with a bear with a mortarboard in the bouquettes. My parents came later, only managed to see them after the whole ceremony (they were at teh guest seats). Sadly yet uniquely for us, there were only 3 students gaduating from BSU (Me, Yi & Sheila). During the group photo session, the VIPS were more than the students. Quite empty, sigh... Mr.Sunjay Phukan (i hope it's the right spelling) & Dr. Kong gave us the recognition & the cert. It wasn't as colorful the scene in comparison to BSU's graduation. BSU's lecturers were PhD levels n they had various patterns of robes, hoods & even mortarboards. But there were a few outstanding one in the HELP graduation - feathery ones by invited overseas people. Dr.Goh was very adorable,as usual. Tiny in a huge, black n blue robe with the round, artist hat. Haha...

Yi had a photo session with her family on that day. The package was quite expensive actually as compared to mine... Anyway, the desert was yummy n the whole occassion was a success. I am now an OFFICIAL GRADUATE!

EMPLOYMENT:

I am currently a probation employee in NamFatt Corporation Berhad, located in Klang (next to Am Bank, Stc Chartered Bank & Maxis). Today is my 5th day of work & there will be more days to come, at least that's wat I anticipate...

Previously, I was looking forward to work in event organizing companies but the offer came later than NF's. Just the day when I signed the employment with NF that the lady from Crystal Edge called me. She said her manager wasn't around so she had to drag 2 weeks before she could contact me. In my opinion, however, they offered some1 else and that some1 else turned down their offer. I must be like their 3rd or 4th offer I guess. My desire to work in the event organizing field was motivated by the entertainment news, mostly showed on TV. Wheneva I watch a succesful concert, I felt the urge to be there, to be apart of the team that brought the concert to its success. Alas, Galaxy didn't want me. Crystal Edge would be my stepping stone in this line but I had to forego. Probably some things are meant to be dreams & reality remains reality. Plus, I was worried that my brain couldn't handle the stress of events(due to irregular working hours). If I had the chance in the near future, I am willing to venture into that field...

So, here I am now in NF, working as a Sales & Marketing Exec. Many asked y? What has psychology got to do with this job? During interviews, it was easy to link the foreign job fields but now, based on a 5 days working experience, I haven't seen or used the application besides using psychology to adapt to the environment & getting to know people (there aren't many that I know). I was called into a meeting on Wednesday during the last minute. It was a proposal by the interior designer regarding our upcoming project. Of course, I wasn't familiar with their interior design, architect jargons. What interest me more was the behavior of the many managers in the room. Some were listening, some were on the phone, some were walking in n out... Different ways of behaving attracted my attention... I preferred observing people than to understand what interior designing was all about... Psychology roots huh?

I'm not saying that I hate my job. There are a lot of things to learn, no doubt. So far, it's still a pleasant environment. Not bad.. My manager sayang me (newbie ma... haha). A few nice n friendly colleagues (& I believe the number will increase in time).

I am still undergoing assessments by UOB. I haven't let that chance go. I would definitely not let go a better chance if I were to be offered one. At the same time also applying for Nestle & HSBC...

Another thing... THere seems to be "constant" employees leaving the company and new employees coming in. I wonder y the leaving? I remembered seeing a girl during my 2nd visit to NF & she was gone when I started work. THe other day, I heard another 1 or 2 leaving the company. Then, there are new people coming in as well... It's weird...

*I got hints that my manager probably isn't as nice as she portrays herself to be...* (No comments for now)

MAY'S BIRTHDAY:

My "lesbian" partner, dearest QIan May, is coming back this weekend to meet up with us & to celebrate her belated birthday. I suggested eating dim sum & putting the candle on either the siu mai or ha kau but she didn't want to. I suggested chee cheong fun instead... Hahaha...

Freestyle Dance Performance (Korea:PREPIX)

I love the slow shadowy movement part. Just like the Matrix... I really admire their dancing skills!

Scary interviews...

The assessment by UOB is by far the most tiring of all cos it took up my energy for the whole day...

The interview at Inti Nilai was a gruesome experience cos it was my 1st time having to have eye contact with 3 interviewers. They gave me hypothetical situations, gave me the worst case scenarios till I ran out of ideas n words to reply their tough "if" questions. However, at the end of the day, the interviewer said I performed well...

Interview by Crystal Edge - I felt intimidated cos the interviewer bombed me of not preparing myself - portraying me as not keen in getting the job. Well... I admit that I just browsed through their web page. She also said I had "wrong" information about the company. I did went into another page n I mentioned about it. She said "no, we don't do that". What can I say? During my 2nd time there, I told her that I double checked n that was what I saw... She couldn't say much after that...

Interview by Armstrong marketing... The director was a smart yet "slippery" person. He knew how to frame his words well. It's like he bombs u in the midst of the conversation in a discreet way. After the usual getting to know session, I asked him about my salary at the end of the interview. He told me as a fresh grad, I shouldn't ask about my pay. I shouldn't price tag myself. Well, it made sense but later I realized that I had the rights to know what am I working for. I needed to weight the advantages n disadvantages. Realistically, money is one of the many reasons to why a person works. So, i HAVE THE RIGHTS TO KNOW! He even said that if a prestigious company wants him as an employee, he would work even without pay. I totally don't believe that! He also bombed me of not doing my homework. I am sooo not equipped with advertising background... One more thing.. He kinda has prejudice towards females, saying that as females, most of us dream of having a beautiful family life, so we don have to worry about work as we have husbands to support us. In other words, he's saying that we may not be all the committed n we may leave the company anytime. It's totally discrimination towards females! I admit my shortcomings but... he's not someone that I wanna work for...

Which else?

1st & 2nd assessment by UOB for Management Associate Program & waiting...

The assessment/ interview session was the most exhausting one of all (comparing to other interviews). There was a forum and an assessment day on Friday evening and Saturday (whole day) respectively. This is none other than the Management Associate Program under United Overseas Bank.

After sending in my application, I received an email, requesting that I attend both forum and assessment at the Park Royal Hotel. THe forum was on Friday evening, which served to explain in detail the "WH" questions about UOB and what the MA program was all about - the job scope, future prospect, salary, benefits etc. I left home at 4pm, taking the ktm all the way to KL Central, then changing to the Monorail to reach Jln Bukit Bintang. Upon reaching, Mr. Chan Ka Hing said my hair was messy. (Note: I had my hair dyed n a new, wilder hair cut. So, I tied my hair which made me look younger, not as mature as I would have hoped for) Anyway, I spent 20 minutes in the restroom trying to groom myself to a better shape. Haha... Registration started at 6pm n Miss Foo was not at the venue yet. I bumped in Karen n Joyce. What a small world?! Hahaha... There were presentations from a few speakers and a lot of jargons were thrown out. I hardly understood the banking terms. Nonetheless, they made the forum a relaxed n light-hearted one. The top management people were friendly and they joked their way about during the Q&A session. There were of course a few people who stood out during Q&A n there were some who looked cocky - well, by 1st impression... After that was the reception - light food. Most of us hardly had dinner n we could only nibble here n there. We had to socialize with "top" people at the same time. Yi n I were hiding at a corner, trying to gobble down our food cos Yi's dad was waiting outside for us. However, we were unable to escape the eyes of a few. Probably, those few who approached us felt that we were isolating ourselves (haha) or maybe my bright, dyed hair attracted their attention (Vain? Yes...) We kinda "ran" away from the venue after that...

Saturday - 2nd day whole day assessment
Left Klang at 6.45am. Yi n I parked our car at KL Central, taking the monorail to Bukit Bintang. Reached there 10 minutes before 8am. The assessment started at 9am DURING BREAKFAST. There was hardly any chance to eat cos we had to show our socializing skills. Eating while talking probably isn't such a nice scene. After breakfast was the group discussion. We were divided into groups and debatable topics were thrown at us for us to discuss n state our comments. My group started with "Life is not about winning or losing. It's all about win-win". The following topics were "Life is a journey", "To err is human, To forgive is Divine" n "Positive attitude". I think That's about it... I obviously spoke my opinion from a psychology point of view. Joyce n I were in the same group. Our opinions did not differ much but we phrased it in different words. My group was moderate in their stating of comments. Some groups, as I was told, had dominating speakers. Lunch came after the group discussion...

Truthfully, even though there was no assessment during lunch time, we couldn't let our guards down. Had to be poised n mannerful at all times. The brain had to be operating every now n then... The short-listing was disclosed at 1.15pm. We were separated into 2 groups - through or not through. 4 of us passed the assessment.

The 2nd level assessment was interesting. There were activities involving 3 criteria - creativity, writing skills n presentation skills. We were divided into groups of 5 n were given the same assignment - to build an "egg catcher machine" with the materials given (e.g. newspaper, straws, tissue, paper clips) in 20 minutes. 2 eggs were dropped from a height of 5ft one after another. The function of the machine was to catch the eggs uncracked. Budgeting was also part of the assignment. My group's egg catcher did not work out as both eggs broke. THe next assignment was to improvise on the 1st machine to prepare for a 6ft egg drop. Since the eggs broke for our 1st machine, we had to rebuild from scratch, this time using the remaining materials, which were the more expensive ones. We had conflicts here n there cos some focused on not breaking the egg even if the egg bounces out while others focused on making it an egg catcher, as in making sure it doesn't bounce out in the 1st place. Given the time restriction (20 minutes also), we decided to make sure that the eggs don't break. Ours were the only group with both eggs not breaking at 6ft although they did bounce out. Our budget was of course higher than other groups... That was the end of the creative session.

I chose the topic of "Good leadership is vital to an individual's progress" to write about in 20 minutes. I had brain stuck sessions a little here n there but I managed to write a full page about it. Presentation was after tea time. We had to wait for our turn. The wait was horrible. THere was no rest for my brain as I kept thinking of what to say, reciting my lines. Fortunately for me, i needn't present my topic. My assessors required me to answer their questions - relating my essay to real life situations, more specifically, back to the egg catcher machine scenario. I dunno whether the assessors were satisfied with my answers but I felt satisifed n confident myself...

I'm wondering if my appearance would cause my being rejected from UOB. I seriously looked like a small girl in my tied hair, more of like a Japanese doll with my fringe. I couldn't let my hair down cos it looks very layered n "wild"....

We shall know the results in a week's time...

9 interviews... Have I broken any record? So NOT... Hahaha...

I attended 7 interviews n I have so far declined 4 job offers n 2 interview arrangements. The more interviews I go, the more "confused" I get... I'm beginning to lose my way - dunno wat do I wanna do...

The other 3 jobs are not confirmed. I've only went through 1st level interview with them. Haven't gotten a second call except for 1 in PJ, which I'm not very keen in doing due to the environment. Probably not very justifiable with my reason but I rily don have that "click" feel when I went there. The other 2 include Management Trainee in Sakae Sushi n Marketing Officer in IOI Properties. I will consider IOI in a serious manner cos it's an established n prestigious organization. They are top 10 in BSKL (shares). I believe I will get very wide exposure n network by working with them. Will learn a lot of things at the same time. Also, by working in IOI, I will have a boost in my resume next time. Then y am I still thinking about it? 1st: Distance - petrol n toll super costly! 2nd: Working during weekends... The pay is good. Overall I think the job scope n job offer's good. Well, they haven't even called me. So i don even know whether am I shortlisted. Hahaha... Stop dreaming!

2 Interviews that I declined - OCBC Customer Service n ING management trainee. Don ask me y cos it's too late to regret now anyway. Hahaha...

What do I rily wan in my near future? What am I looking for, rily....

Disappointed? Yes, I guess...

Maybe... Probably...

I had too high an expectation of myself...

Too prestigious for me...

It's understandable... Just not my luck...

Declining job offers

So far, I have attended 5 interviews - Nevcorp, HELP, GTI, Idea Kiosk and today, Crystal Edge. I have turned down 3 offers. Nevcorp due to the job scope, HELP due to the familiar environment (I wanna try somewhere new) and Idea Kiosk (pay too low but I think they din wanna offer me either cos the pay expectation was rily tooooo far). Comparing the other 2, I would prefer GTI but the location is seriously not favorable. As for Crystal Edge, they told me to wait for a week to confirm whether I'm offered anot. Well.. that's the update so far...

Galaxy did not contact me. Looks like it's gonna remain a dream/hope... They said there's no job vacancy at the present time... Life goes on...

I have a few job applications which are under consideration in job street but I have yet to receive any call...

I don wanna continue rotting at home. I'm kinda sick n tired of interviews. It's not cheap, u know, especially the travelling fees. So, I hope I get a job that I rily like soon...

Keep my fingers crossed!!!

Tagged by Hau Wei Part III

How weird can one be?Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1. I care about my appearance very much n I've always wanted to be thinner than my current self (it doesn't matter how fat or thin I am at that moment). So, I guess it's normal for some ppl to think that I have a tendency towards eating disorder.

2. Is being emotional stg weird? Or should I say being emotionally expressive stg weird? Crying n laughing are usually the 2 common emotions that I show then n there. I cry easily e.g. when I watch tv shows (korean, taiwan, wateva), movies (I not stupid II) etc. To me, crying is a way to express how u feel, doesn't matter whether it's happy or sad. There's ntg to be embarrassed about. So, guys out there, do keep this in mind... As for anger, I wouldn't show it at all times cos sometimes it's necessary to keep myself composed. My philosophy: Ppl react the way they do towards u cos of the way u act towards them. So, u angry, I angry, then u angrier, then I angrier n the cycle continues...

3. I like to observe n analyse ppl which sometimes annoys my bf. I may find that particular person or group interesting when it doesn't interest him the least bit. It seemed to him that I do it almost all the time. Well, as a psych graduate, I would say it's normal... Haha...

4. Not that I like changing clothes a lot, it's just that I have problem pairing up my clothes. I may think top A and bottom B match but when I put them on, the combination just sucks! So, I'll end up pairing here n there until I get the best match. At the end of the day, I'll have clothes covering my bed. Haha..

5. My frens would say that I have "lala" clothing taste. I wouldn't deny that entirely but one thing for sure... My fashion taste has improved tremendously!!!

6. I can be very stingy at times but when I decide to spend, that's when I'll spend kau kau!!! The mind is a very powerful tool. Haha..

The "tag" asks for only 6 weird things. I would like to voluntarily add another 1...
7. I can be very indecisive at times. I have been brought up to behave in an accommodative manner so, i'm OK with almost anything n everything unless it rily goes against wat I like/want. Even when I'm on a job hunt now, I don't have a particular interest. Another way of saying is that I like too many things to choose just one. Come what may, n I'll try my best...

My victims are:
1. KHOO HAU CHUN
2. DEBBIE LEE
3. KHOO SUAN GUIK
4. MELISA LIM
5. VALERIE ONG

Tagged by Hau Wei Part II

Guess what? I finished that tagged thing but stg went wrong n I lost the whole blog entry. I did copy it but somehow it's no where to be found n I'm in no mood to retype the whole thing. Shall do it the next time...

Tagged by Hau Wei

It seems that my "dearest" Hau Wei has tagged me for this 5 weird things about yourself. Well, I won't be listing them down now. Will do it sometime soon. Busy with interviews hahahaha...

More interviews...

I am getting calls from different unfamiliar numbers, asking me to attend interview sessions with the respective organizations. So far, I've got positions of business development exec, marketing exec, events coordinator, assistant event manager... I'm waiting for more calls to come...

Anyway, tmr's interview is the business dev exec 1 in Seri Kembangan. The position name sounds quite cool rite? In truth it is no differnt from a sales & marketing exec... It's called GTI, a career magazine publisher. I'll see how it goes tmr. However, even if the offer is good, the chance of me accepting it is rather dim cos its toooooo far away...

I have decided to decline an interview with OCBC bank for the position of customer service officer. I am still not prepared to work in a bank setting. So, there it goes.. Oh, I don think I'm accepting H_ _ _'s offer as well. I would like to step out into a new environment. To many, It may be a good place to start with cos its such a familiar area but I would like to try stg fresh n anew. Look forward to my future elsewhere...

What I am really hoping for is a position in GALAXY! What many may think of is the magazine but what I'm refering to is an event management organization which is in charge of huha concerts!!! Sounds cool rite? I totally agree... I don dare to put too much high hope on this job.. The higher I expect, the more I'll be disappoionted if I don get it...

Everything said n done...

Offered, yet again...

For the 2nd time, I was indirectly offered a job without me even realizing it. Today's interview was more like a talking session, "sharing" according to the interviewer. He was telling me from head to toe what my job was gonna be like, asking me to consider n think what am I actually looking for cos he's expecting a long term employee. Based on what he knows about previous fresh graduates, they come, they stay a few mths (max) n they leave... No commitment... Well, I'm thinking that the job may not actually fulfill my "cravings" but it will be a very good exposure to the working world, esp in the marketing area. Stability is the word. If I opt for a bigger organization, I'll probably get the challenging, creative environment that I'm looking for, but definitely not as stable as the educational line. THe pay... We hardly mentioned about the pay... THe thing is that I could feel that he knows I'm not gonna stay in the organization long or proabably wouldn't even consider taking the job offer. He said when he saw my CV, even without seeing me personally, he felt that I wouldn't take the job offer. From that I can conclude 2 possible reasons. It's either he felt that I wouldn't get the satisfaction from HELP or he felt that I deserve better. Haha... ANyway, I'm still waiting for other opportunities for now. I'm giving myself till this Friday. If there are no better offers than HELP, I'll stay with HELP for the next few months. At least, I wouldn't be so lost for the mean time...

At the same time, I'm considering to apply for management associate programs at OCBC... SHould I or should I not??!!

Missing you...

I'm finally admiting it, dear...

I'M SUPER SPOILED!

We've been spending so much time together through out the previous 2 months, practically everyday I would say... N now ur classes are officially starting tmr. It has only been a few hours n I'm missing u so much already... How am I to bare these few days until I see u again this weekend? (U better come back, I tell u...)

I hope that I'll get a job real soon to distract myself from thinking about u all the time.

I'm also hoping that our new environment doesn't separate us too far apart, u with Seremban n me with my working world...

Dear, I miss u sooooooo damn much!

Scam, it was, indeed..

It was a scam! Indeed a huge scam!

Okok... Calm down...

Probably it wasn't a scam to others but it was to me...

The name sounded so prestigious, so sophisticated but... heck! The job scope doesn't even go well with the name... A_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ T_ _ _ _ _ _ offered by N_ _ _ _ _ _ at M_ _ _ _ A_ _ _ _ _ II at Jln. Y_ _ K_ _ _ S_ _ _. I'm being "discreet" here, mind u...

The whole thing was actually direct sales all the way! I didn't earn a degree to do direct sales. I may sound a little too cocky here but... I deserve a better job. The job may offer me very good pay based on FULL COMMISSION n NO BASIC but I'm not interested. That's all I have to say...

Sayonara!

2nd interview...

I had my sudden & last minute 2nd interview today at my ex college in KL. I was suppose to go on a date with my darling dearest today until I got a phone call at 11.30am, requiring me to attend an interview at 2.30pm later on the day. Since I wanted to get it over n done with, i agreed to go for it. Sadly, I had to cancel out our date. My darling was nice enough to drive me there n accompany me through out the whole process (again... Love u dear...)

After lunch, I went to the office for the interview. I had someone who highly recommended me for the position. So, the people in there kinda know me. Haha.. (damn proud nae...) The interview was brief, i would say, cos the interviewer was in a rush for a meeting. I think they had deliberately squeezed me into her schedule cos I emailed my ... yesterday n I suppose it kinda pressured him to follow up on my job application. The interviewer said she'll probably notify me for a 2nd time interview. Well, I didn't get to discuss with her regarding the pay, renumeration etc. I don even know whether would they cover the costs for the transportation n travelling. I found out that my job involves moving about n travelling to schools to promote the education programs. Hmmm...

My ... said he would recommend me to another marketing company as well. So, if the interviewer today doesn't want me, I still have a chance at another place. Based on how I performed, I feel confident on my chances today though...

Comparing my 1st n 2nd job interview, darling suggested that I choose the 2nd job (that's if I get offered for both of them) cos the 2nd one looks more stable n established where else the 1st looks vague n unknown. I feel the same way too... However, I feel that the 1st job is more exposed n the job line involves more interesting projects while the 2nd involves only 1 content. I won't decide now cos ntg is confirmed so far...

I have a continuing interview for the 1st job tmr. Hope things go well. Even if I don wan the job in the end, at least passing through the interviews boosts my self esteem. Haha...

Toodaloo..

My first interview...

I attended my very first official job interview today - Tuesday (27/3/07) and it turned out quite well cos they asked me to return for the 2nd interview...

It was an "Apprentice trainee" position offered by an advertising n marketing company nearby KLCC. Location wise, I'm not very keen but I think the job is quite challenging & interesting. According to the person, the company caters to big companies such as Digi, TMnet etc. n they do things such as event management, campaigns, roadshows etc. Then she just roughly mentioned the pay, ranging from 1800 to 2500, depending on the education background n performance wise. Well, not bad for starters... Future prospects? Branch manager, project manager etc. Actually the whole thing is equivalent to a management trainee thingey...

I went to darling n may today - 2 bodyguards to escort me haha... I didn't know the place n the place looked weird. Very jam as usual... We managed to find the place n were invited in by a friendly receptionist. It was obvious that I was there for the interview cos I was dressed very formally while the other 2 were wearing jeans n t-shirts. The friendly guy was saying that i brought frens for emotional support. Err... Yes... I know with ppl accompanying me, it rily looks negative n portrays me as not indepedent... Wat the heck?! I wouldn't wana get lost... The receptionist also hinted that darling n may should leave the place unless they're there for the interview but who cares... they stayed on n we continued chatting till the interview started. Haha..

It was a mass interview session with 5 ppl per session. I went in with an advertising exec, supervisor, assistant manager a.k.a GM n a clerk (all bound to quite their previous jobs for this position). The interviewer was their HR manager, a very young lady. She has quite admirable skills, knows how to talk, bring herself about, joke n yet keep the atmosphere tense. Haha... Sure knows how to bombard our answers with tough questions. She just asked us to talk about ourselves, talk about our skills, n our goals in the coming 2 years. I was the 2nd person talking n started by telling my age. Then i told them that I was a fresh graduate in psych. I went on to eloborate wat psych was about untill she bombed me. Hahaha... She ask whether was I rejected alot previously. If not, y do i need to explain wat psych is about? I was like ... no?! I just replied that I wanted to link psych to this job. Haha... Then she asked if my friends n family were to criticize my negative points, what would it be? It took me a while before I answered n I said "my impulsivity". Sometimes I can be irrational n I allow my impulses to take over my logical senses... She also asked me how would i deal with negative conflicts? I told her all the crap about conflicts due to diff values etc. She said try answering from a day to day conflict, simple n straightforward. I just answered "I know it will not be easy but I'm willing to learn n try to cope".... That was all i said...

The interview lasted for about 35 minutes n she said there will be a 2nd n 3rd interview to come if we passed this level. When she asked when were we able to attend the next interview if we were chosen, everyone said anytime. I said "Friday" Tiao kae rite? Cos i have plans with darling tmr n plans with may on Thursday.. Hahahaaha... Later about 7pm, she gave me a call n told me that I passed the interview n the next session's on Thursday noon. Ok then.. I'll just give it another shot...

It was seriously a funny day cos I wasn't prepared for the interview (apperance wise). They called a day before to tell me n I had no clothes to wear. I do have a new suit but just the blazer n the skirt - no shirts to go with it. So after much contemplation, I wore my white catering shirt that I bought back at Bemidji which was much bigger my size. it looked messy on me. Thanks to the blazer, I looked good in the whole thing. Haha... I had no suitable bags to use so I used my moms. The bag was a not so quality one that the skin was peeling n it dirtied my shirt. Haih... I had no formal shoes so i wore my mom's 10 yrs ago polo shoes. On the outside, it looked ok but the sole was all sticky n icky n it was biji biji here n there. I had to wear like the panty hose material kinda socks. I ended up throwing the socks away cos the base was too yucky n sticky. Not only that I was leaving "shoe bread crumbs" wheneva I tried a new shoe on. Haih... I bought new clothes when I was at KLCC after the interview. I wanted to buy new heels too but my feet were aching (blister-ing) thanks to the old shoes that when I tried on new shoes, I couldn't differentiate whethere the discomfort was because of the previous pain or cos the new shoes were uncomfortable. Haih...

Well... thats how the day went. I wonder how will Thursday turn out to be....

My Love, My Valentine...

I know it's a little too long since Valentine's passed but I'm gonna blog about it anyway..

I missed last year's Valentine's with my darling dearest n I'm glad we're able to experience it together this year. Different from the previous times, we had dinner on the 13th of Feb. He told me that he booked a place at some bak kut teh shop in somewhere that he didn't know how to go. Hello... Klang has the best bak kut teh n how can he now know klang's way around. N he sooooo super knows that I'm not a big fan of bak kut teh... Well, I knew from the start we weren't eating bak kut teh but i played along - asking him wat's the place like? What am I to wear to a bak kut teh stall? Candle light dinner road side? Haha... He later dropped me a hint, saying that it's a place that we've both been to.

He drove to that "secretive" place uisng the NKVE highway. So, I guessed that we were probably going to 1u which in the case was correct n i kinda guessed the restaurant based on his clue. It was indeed, nonetheless, the famous "Italiannies".,, It wasn't the set kinda dinner cos hc said it'll be a waste of food considering that I won't manage to finish wateva's served. Haha... So we just ordered a side n a main. I ordered a pina colada with rum. I forgot that he didn't like the coconut taste in that drink n I couldn't fnish the drink. He had to drink that down for my sake. Haha.. Next... Pressie time!! When hc brought the box out, I could roughly guess wat was it already cos he has been dropping hints weeks before. N guess wat it was? It was a steel ring! How did I know? He asked me a few times wat was my ring size (indirectly n discreetly of cos)... He, however, surprised me when he wore the other half of the ring on his finger. I didn't expect him to buy a pair n neither did i expect him to be willing to wear a paired ring on his finger. Initially i wanted to wear on my right hand middle finger but he said no cos it meant engaged. So, the ring settled down on my 2nd finger instead. Hahaha...

What did I get for him? I got his present only on the 13th Feb at about 11.30am. After much contemplation, I finally decided to buy him a pair of Hush Puppies shoes - the one that he had longed for for the past 1 year. It wasn't cheap but it wasn't expensive either. For that quality, it's worth the value... One thing though... I wasn't sure whether I had buy the right pattern that he liked cos he only showed me once. So, when i passed the pressie to him I was too afraid that i had my eyes closed. But his reaction told me that I was correct. Phew... It would have turned out a disaster if it wasn't the 1 he liked... Glad..

He had prayers on the 14th. We didnt managed to go anywhere. So, we ended up watching Blood Diamond in Klang. Good movie! Too violent though...

THank u dear for the memorable time... Will always appreciate our love... We're gonna go through another rough ride when I start working but I believe with hard work n determination, we're gonna overcome the challenges n stay together through thick n thin. I have u in my future plannings n i want it so bad that I'll make sure it happens... *shy* LOVE YOU DEAR!

Chinese New Year Holidays coming to an end...

It is now the 8th day of CNY... n the whole celebration (by right) is gonna end in 1 week's time. Some has already started their work a few days ago but tomorrow will be the day where everyone is back at where they are suppose to be - be it workplace, school, college etc. I am still "rotting"... Until now, i have not attended any interview sessions. I do intent to.. Have applied for a few jobs online and am still waiting for their reply. Will be sending snail mails to respective employers as well...

Previously.. I thought I was going to specialize in the clinical field of psychology. I did a personality test and discussed with my career counselor, who suggested that I may not actually suit clinical or counseling, considering the way my personality report came out to be. After a long session of chat, he gave me new perspectives to think from and fed me with information about the working prospects for degree holders in psychology... As my ex-lecturer, i trust his counseling skills and experience. He suggested that I try my luck in marketing event management. Come to think about it, event management is an interesting and challenging job. It fosters a creative environment and provides opportunity of network building. It is worth giving a try anyway. He told me that he would personally recommend me to the director (in Help UC... Yes, it's back at where I started, the college that I had studied in)... I'll be seeing him tomorrow to pass him my documents. I guess the next step will be an interview. However, I'm not gonna be hanging only to this job opportunity. I'll still be waiting for other job opportunities, maybe things like PR or event management, preferably at nearer places which do not require too much petrol, toll or parking. Haha...

I understand that psychology is still at its baby level here in Malaysia but I believe that it's prospering, moving on to its toddler years. Yet, many misunderstands this field. This is what i find disappointing about... Then again, who is to be blamed? They are not the people in this field. THey are not obliged to understand this field. I may not even understand other fields as much as I think I do. So... no hard feelings... What people has misunderstand is that psychology is a field limited to counseling and counseling only, nothing else. The truth is psychology is a very very broad and general subject. As wat my brother's fren had said... it's something that is BSBH ("Bao sua bao hai" - a term from Money Not Enough)... Psychology is a scientific study of understanding human thoughts, behaviors and feelings. That's the basic definition of it. Almost every single thing in this world involves humans... human interactions, human communications etc. And as long as there are humans, psychology is always needed. So, we, as psychology graduates, can venture in almost, but not all, the jobs out there including marketing, HR, PR, social services, research, advertising, mass comm etc. Some have argued that human interactions is an accumulative skill attained over time. With experience, these skills are sure to come sooner or later. The thing is, why make it later? We have an advantage in this. I'm not saying that we can understand people with just a glance or a word or wateva not. It's just that we have learnt possible theories and explanations to events happening around us. We have learnt to be good observers, good listeners, to understand why people behave the way that they do... In a way, we have sped up our learning process and have attained skills that others may need 10 or 20 years down the road to acquire... OK.. I think i better stop my psychology "philosophy" here. It is of interest to me, but it may not to others. Like yesterday, I was very fascinated by hc's very very very super kuai cousin but hc found it normal n no big deal... Well... interests vary...

Hope to get some news on my job soon... Toodaloo!

Reliving this blog...

Welcome back, miss Chin Hun...

I shall not let this blog die. Thanks to Averdim, who so nicely encouraged me with his "almost" comment...

There are tonnes of updates, so i shall just briefly mention the things that I have done for the past 3 weeks:

- Volunteered at Malaysia Mental Health Association (MMHA)
Seriously, that was my first experience with adults who have mental health difficulties. Some of u may think that studying psychology, it should be the one of the core exposures that we have during the course but No... What we had was just theories n research. Never a direct contact with clients. If I wasn't at MMHA, I wouldn't have known that some of them were facing difficulties. They looked very very normal, just like any other people. Even until now, I have no idea wat are they down with. The person in charge said that it was total confidentiality. Well, I suppose unless I volunteer there long enough, I will find out sooner or later. So far I've only been there twice to bake cookies with them. I hope to prolong this experience of mine. It will definitely help with my opportunity in the clinical setting.

- Genting with Darling
Hehe.. THis was of course a sweet experience. Pak toh with him 4 years n that was our first trip together, just the both of us. Went there for 3 days 2 nights. Took our time. Played in the themepark - indoor and outdoor. It was fun despite the heavy fog. Different from a week before when i went to Genting where I could stand the weather by just wearing a spaghetti top, this time i had to use my BSU sweatshirt. It;s good news cos the sweater is so thick that Genting is the only place that I can use it. Probably Cameron n Frasers Hill as well. We wathed Death Note 2 there. I loved the movie. So interested in "L"'s character... Went into the casino. Yes! I'm old enough to enter the casino although they did insist on checking our ICs. Overall, it was a beautiful xperience...

- Grandparents house with darling...
If u guys were thinking about kin ka jiong, sorry to disappoint u but its not the way it appears to be. My darling dearest caught flu cos he wasn't used to the kampung's polluted air (thanks to my grand dad burning kulit kelapa hahahah...) Then he was fascinated to see roosters fighting among one another, cats killing rats, methods to make kuih bakul (my grandma uses the traditional china way to make it), wat else? Thats about it... My grandparents seemed to adore hc very very much, say he very kuai la, very quiet la, very helpful la etc. Even said that he wont' curi makan ask me not to worry hahaha... Thanks dear for accompanying me to a place that u weren't used to.. Love u o...

Thats about it so far.. further updates later...

Color, color, go away...

Seriously speaking, I don think I am ever fated with hair dye. The last time I highlighted my hair, it turned out to be a huge disaster. This time, I've again tried my luck & disappointment I have experienced. I just recently had my hair cut which I liked very much but the decision to color my black with slight dyed hair was, I guess, a wrong one because no one seemed to have approved my choice besides the IMU bunch.

What has been done has been done. There is nothing much that I can do now but wait for my precious black hair to regrow. I wish I could add some baja & water my hair to speed up the process... I can choose to redye but that will be the 3rd TIME already... The 1st color was bright golden yellow. I dunno y but the color that I chose wasn't even close. The 2nd color, the now color, as I mentioned is bright orange. Under different light brightness though, the color changes. Not much of cos, but it gets darker with less white light... At least, that's what I found out...

Anyway, since I can't fight it, I shall just live with it. I'm gonna go for serious interviews after CNY. I pray hard that my hair won't affect me much or else I have no choice but to cut or dye the whole head....

The last time I vowed never to dye my hair & I violated my own vow! I seriously will never consider dying my hair again. People usually say, once bitten, twice shy. I'm already been bitten TWICE! So, I've learnt enough lessons to never repeat this stupid mistake of mine.. Mark my words...

Missing ice hockey...

I MISS ICE HOCKEY!

Home Sweet Home

Miss Chin Hun Gun is back in town! I arrived at KLIA at 8am on 28th Dec 2006.

I wanted to surprise my family. So i told them that my flight was at night instead of in the morning n i had Hc fetching me from the airport. The whole surprise was ruined when my brother saw hc's car on the way to my parents' office. Next thing u know, my mom surprised my back by knowing that I was coming for them. But the cool thing was that my dad n other siblings didn't know. Haha...

I'm home finally after being away for a whole year. Time just flew through. Who would've guessed that I've unofficially graduated (only as an undergraduate)? Then again, I'm not the only who has cos most of my friends have already started working...

It's year 2007... What are plans for now? I'll probably volunteer at this place called Malaysia Mental Health Association, that's if they're willing to accept me. I guess that would be a good place for me to start, a place where I can get a good grasp of the prospect of Psychology in Malaysia. I plan to rest all the way until CNY, then be my mom's assistant in my dad's place till my graduation in May. I'll only start my serious job in June, that's if where ever I plan to work is willing to hire me.

Truthfully, I'm not all that prepared for the society out there. I do enjoy studying n if i were given a choice, I would opt to continue studying. But it's probably better if i slow down just a little bit n reorganize my steps ahead before I make any further drastic decisions. I do intend to continue grad school at some point of my life. It's just a matter of wat I wanna specialize in...

That's the update about my future planning for the mean time...

Yes, for those of u who are still wondering... Miss Chin Hun has indeed PUT ON WEIGHT! Practically everyone who has seen me so far has said that I'm fatter now... SIgh... Continue laughing or teasing all u want... I do intend to lose all those excess fats u know? Haha... Or maybe I should just put it this way. It's normal to put on weight when one goes overseas. I'm not saying that those who didn't are abnormal haha...

I've been trying to get use to life back in Malaysia for the past few days. I'm over jetlagging. When i stepped into my newly renovated house, it felt so "strange" as in a stranger. I had to get use to the whole new house environment. Not only that, I had to adjust myself to the sharing family lifestyle. No more the individual, all by myself way of living. Sharing rooms, toiletries, etc. Well, I use to have things to myself back in US. hahaha... Time to change girl...

As for driving, I'm still trying to get use to the "driving style" here. The place that I stayed in US was a quiet n peaceful town, no jams, no potong sana sini type of driving. So, when Hc drove me back from the airport, I practically reminded him to be careful for like 5 times?! Haha... Which of cos he found annoying... When i practiced driving the other day, I had the tendency to drive on the right lane. When i crossed the road, i didn't feel that i had to look out for cars cos in B-town, the cars watch out for pedestrians n not the other way round. Haha.. THere's tiny itsy bitsy things that I need to adjust to but it'll be fine...

I guess that's all for now... Will continue updating.. I hope...