A video of 4 girls

I made a video about my close friends & I about our friendship & ups & downs in HELP Uni College... Sweet old memories... Dedicated specially to Yi, Val, Fang, & Ch (myself)...
Tried posting from youtube but dunno y I couldn't.
So, here's the link...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=KbPcqtn_gR8

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183's new song

I'm officially 21...

Yay! I've finally turned 21 (last week actually...)

3 of us (Val, Fang & I) combined our birthday celebration cos we were all born in November and we organized a home party on the Nov 11th. The house was decorated by noon... Quite gang ho... It started abour 10pm cos we had a hockey game to watch before that. There were chips, chocolates, hotdog cucuk (haha), yogurt with granola, n most of all - alcohol! Haha... not just plain beer or hard liquor, we just bought 2 bottles of red wine & 2 bottles of champagne. I think more people preferred the champagne to red wine. Our small house was kinda packed with around 30 people. Our neighbour brought a home made cake over. Delicious I would say... by 11.30, half of the guests wanted to go to the bar. So, most of them left before we could cut the delicious oreo ice cream cake. Anyway, it was a day filled with fun n laughter.

Jarrod, Airene n Ching Ching got me undergarments. Pictures can be seen at facebook through my tagged photos (for those of u who has facebook, u'll know wat i mean). I got a cow soft toy from Jerry, Jane etc. (I'm not too sure who else). Of cos, there were balloons here n there. Just right before the few left for the bar, they sprayed the eeky, slimy, oily thingey on me, val n fang (i think). There goes my hair!

By the way, the t-shirt that 3 of us were wearing was a present from Yi. Mine was written "Buy me a drink" at the front and "Hun 21, as usual" at the back. Fang had "21 yr olds rock" -front n "Fang, copyright 1985" - back. Val had "I'm legally 21"-front n "Valerie"-back. Very sweet of her. N the t-shirts were the most that everyone paid attention to...

My official birthday was on Monday n at 12 midnight, the 3 sampat girls just rushed into my room wrapping my eyes with a towel, my body strapped on the chair, my head covered with my undergarments (wat crap!)... Then they video-ed whoeva on MSN to show them how i look n those ppl sang birthday songs to me.... I had to guess wat my present was (it was wrapped with newspapers ONLY). When i guessed wrong, i was punished... First guess - wrong! Punished! 2nd guess - wrong! Punished! (Eating like 8 pieces of peanut butter chocolate in the middle of the night). Next thing u know, CHOCOLATES were my birthday presents - from Val & Fang, n even from Bruce..

Anyways, i'm now legally 21. Dunno whether to be happy or sad... Sigh...

I'm left with 1 month n 1 week before I leave Bemidji. Dilemma... I know I'm definitely gonna miss B-town...

*Pictures are available at facebook.com*

What happened?

I ter-changed my blog to a beta format & I lost my chat box & pet. I don think it's reversible... *buhuhu* How can have my chatbox back? Can somebody or anybody help me?...

Such horrible attitude

I am probably gonna start my blog with some ommitted harshness in my language.

@#$%%^&!!! BIA*CH!!!

Was treated badly and was insulted today noon. This person had totally ruined our day but lucky, we were able to recover fast. Pointless to allow such a unmannered person to affect our emotions too long... Still, H*LL with her!

They have one of the best drinks around n i rily like doing business with them but this person's attitude totally ruined their business for me. Don't even feel like buying from them anymore. Super horrible attitude! She could have been more polite, or possibly more subtle in her way of conveying her message. I tried thinking from the POV of why she had to talk in such a manner but no excuses for her to have acted the way she did.

I could easily buy up the whole stall and FIRE her for all I want but no, why would I do that just for her sake? Just felt like slapping her at that moment to release my dissatisfaction. She sounded like we, or me, were/was poor and cheap people who hung on to public advantages. Bloody hell... I doubt she hardly remembers when I had bought drinks from her n she FRESHLY remembers when I have taken a free thing or two. Damn!

So, u wan me to stop huh? I might just continue just to pist u off! Watch ur language, for goodness sake...

$%^&*....

Happy 21st Birthday, Valerie...

Valerie's suprise birthday was not planned until a few hours before her birthday. Everything was actually very last minute but the whole occassion turned out just as well...

Val received a beautiful vase of flower on Sat (Nov 4) morning from this "anonymous" person. In truth, her parents had asked us to get her the flower on their behalf. We wanted it to be of a surprise element, therefore, the anonymousity. Val was very excited and she thought and wondered so much who was the sender. Could it be from her secret admirer? Our "acted-out" reaction added to her curiousity.
















Anyway, 3 of us went to the mall later in the noon to buy her birthday present. On the way, we met Jane, Bin Bin n Jerry n were kinda planning the party in the shuttle. Haha... They would buy the cake n watsoeva not while we try to come up with a surprise plan or at least to distract Val...

"Unfortunately" for us, Val was inviting her friends over for dinner n there was no way for us to distract her or keep her out of the house. So, there was nothing much to plan. Her friends "annoyingly" stayed till very late about 11++ pm. I'm saying annoying only because we couldn't do much n we had no way of communicating or coordinating with them to carry out the surprise. The funny part was they knew about the so called surprise n that's y they were staying till that late. Haha...

We contacted Bin Bin and told them to come anyways. Knock on the door n surprise Val straight. 3 of us were in the room talking to each other through MSN to make the whole thing more interesting just in case it didn't turn out well. So, we came up with weird tasks for Val to do if she wants to know who sent her those flowers. N we had it plan that some guy will walk up to her n confess to her that it was him who sent it while passing to her a card from her family at the same time. Haha...

So, at 12am, Bruce knocked on the door and Tim (instead of Val) opened the door. Val n her friends were watching V for Vendetta with the ceiling as a screen (*shakes head*). After TIm opened the door, the bunch rushed in from behind and started spraying Val with I dunno wat u call those. Spraying stuffs la.. Val ran all the way to the washing machine but was still unable to avoid the cruel punishment. There goes her hair, her clothes n our floor. Haha... We sang happy birthday n Val blew the candle on the cake. Next, we presented her with the tasks to do. We had her draw 1 out of 3 papers n do all the tasks written on it. The truth was we only had 3 tasks n all 3 papers had the same 3 tasks written on it. Hahaha...








No.1 : Kiss every guy in the house.
Val did BUT ON THEIR HANDS! So unsporting of her. SHould have specified cheek.

No.2 : Go to the backyard and sing "You're so vain" from How to lost a guy in 10 days. Change the lyrics from "YOU" to "I".
She did and they made her sang louder by saying "We can't hear u". Haha..
During that time, I pulled Patrick and shoved him into the toilet, passing him a note and card. We wanted him to be the guy who confesses to Val about the flowers. He was suppose to say "Happy Birthday Val. I gave u the flowers" with additional eye contact etc. Patrick was indeed sporting enuf to coorperate with us... hehe...

No.3 : Eat a bowl of rice like a Down Syndrome kid. Rice MUST fall out of mouth.
Val did this as well. Furnee...


After that, Val asked about the flower sender. Jerry dropped a huge hint "somewhere far". 3 of us immediately said NO!!! Haha... then, i just said, the person who sent the flowers pls step forward which of cos Patrick did. He walked over to Val n said those lines and passed her the card. Everyone was like stunned and awed. Screams n Ooo-ing all over place. Val was rather shocked, I would say. She rily believed at that point of time. She even gave Patrick a hug. Before she misunderstood further, we insisted that she opened the card. Next thing u know, the card had a "Daughter" word written on the front page. We started bursting out loud. Hahaha.... Well, the trick worked!

Grace made a delicious muffin. 2 thumbs up! Basically wat happened after that were just cake eating, laughing, talking n more laughing... Don forget picture taking.

Yogi etc. dropped by later to wish Val...

Anyways, thank u everyone for making this event a success!!!

Zhang Dong Liang_Tong Che Xin Fei

Another favorite of mine...

Zhang Dong Liang _Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei

My current favorite song! Love it! From "Wei Xiao Pasta" OST...

~Drowning in the midst of LOVE~

Love is such a wonder... aesthetic... almost anything and everything (I'm being conservative here)... Love gives u so much uncertainty and doubt, yet it provides u safety and fulfill ur need of belongingness...
Amazingly amazing... The power of ~LOVE~

At one time, I thought I had lost it. I thought our time has ended. I thought I'd never find it back. I thought that's how far we were fated. I thought and I thought so many negative thoughts... But... U held on more than anything in the world. U gave me assurance again and again. U brought me back to the right path when I deviated. U were always around to motivate me, to reinstall hope in me that there's more. If there were anything at all, it was just a sudden pause. We'd be able to move right back on track. Time was all we needed...

Thanks to U, I've managed to find the love that I lost back and I'm able to fill in the empty hole.
I'm very glad that I did cos I'm proud to say that I'm drowning in the midst of love now.

Looking forward to seeing U again, hold U, hug U tight in my arms, kiss U...

It's weird how much love can impact us, or should I say how much the person that u love can impact u. U have impacted me a lot in a lot of ways. Thank U for choosing me. U won't regret it - a personal promise that I'm making to U.

Loving U always...

I have failed... again..

From the time I started setting my goal, I have only managed to achieve by a little bit less than half. I have not been able to proceed towards my goal which shouldn't be the case. Lacking of self control. Lacking of the ability to delay gratification. Where is my self regulation? I have failed in this...

As I'm typing, I'm experiencing the failure. Very much disappointed & angry with myself.... I know in every part of me, I could always have done better. I know I am capable of reaching my goal but... I succumbed to my own desire instead. My "id" has taken over once again while my "superego" is now taking over me with guilt and resentment. Where is my "ego" when I need it?

I have got to keep my head straight if I wanna reach this goal of mine. No more excuses. No more "Nah, it's ok. Just this once." No more!!! Have to be more strict with myself. I know I can do better & I will! I must... recover my source of self-esteem...

Short term goal for this week - 2 - If not, I will take further measures of punishing myself. A promise to myself...

The art of Hypnotism

Some time ago (in the mth of September), I attended a hypnotism seminar/show & it was indeed an eye opener. The experience was fun, exciting and yet scary. Imagine to have someone that capable of manipulating others with such persuasive ability. However, not everyone can be hypnotized. It's all in the mind. If you allow yourself to be vulnarable enough to be controlled, then you'll be one of the first to doze off. It's an imaginary world. According to the hypnotist, those who are hypnotized are actually conscious and aware of their surrounding but they just don't bother to wake up because they're too comfy in their imaginary world. They rarely remember what they did during the process.

It was interesting to watch. I was afraid that I could be hypnotized below stage that I had to keep myself aware n awake all the time. The hypnotizer started out by recruiting volunteers upstage - about 12-15 students went up n sat on the chairs arranged in a semicircular form. Then there was this blinking white light in the middle facing the volunteers. The hypnotizer started talking, telling the students to imagine themselves in a relaxing and comfortable situation. Let their guards down. Relaxed was the key word. Slowly (about 5 minutes), one by one, the students starting dozing off. Some were limp-ish that they couldn't even sit straight. It was obvious that 1 or 2 were still quite consious, not entirely allowing themselves to be hypnotized. The hypnotizer 'woke' the un-hypnotized and went down stage to recruit those who were hypnotized unknowingly down stage. It was funny and amazing that there were quite a number of people who were hypnotized down stage even without the blinking lights n proper atmosphere. There was this guy near to us and he was hell hypnotized cos he was doing wateva the people on stage were doing. The hypnotizer had them clasp their hands together n hold them tight, as if the hands were glued n there was no way to separate them. N this guy did exactly as what he was told...

The hypnotizer did a number of things. He just had to count 1,2,3 n pat them n they'd be snoring like pigs. Immediate dozing.... I was extremely awed! He told the hypnotized students to imagine that they were in a cold place n they were all shivering like mad. He told them to imagine themselves sunbathing which of cos they did. They even imagined an ice-cream at hand. One was licking his hands cos of the imaginary melting ice-cream. They were asked the flavors of the ice-cream n 1 guy said "beer"!!! hahahaha... They did many things. E.g. imagine the crowd naked, imagine themselves naked (1 guy din bother about the fact that he was naked on stage n just sat on his chair with the 'don care' look while others tried their best to hide). They imagined they had pet birds - 1 girl had a pet turkey hahahaha... n the hypnotizer made them imagine that the pet bird was crawling into their clothes n it was uncomfortable that they had to try everyway to remove the 'pet'. Some girls were on the verge of taking off their clothes already.

Extra funny scenes.
1 girl was hypnotized n was told that she will not know the existence of the number '7'. So, wheneva she counts, number 7 will never appear in her head. So, she was tested, counting her fingers n she did skip 7, going from 6 to 8. She ended up having 11 fingers. That was hillarious! Even after she was seated, she kept looking at her fingers n toes, counting again n again, not understanding y she had 11 fingers n toes. At 1 point she hid 1 of her fingers n managed to have 10 fingers. Hahahha...

1 guy was told that he would realize himself wearing his shirt inside out wheneva the word 'car key' was said. Wheneva the hypnotizer mentioned car keys, the guy would look awkward n rather embarrassed n he would ultimately change his shirt inside out, doesn't matter whether the shirt was inside out in the 1st place. He did it repeatedly thanks for the hypnotizer. Hahaha...

1 girl was told that she will not remember her name but she will remember the names of everyone else that she knows. When the hypnotizer asked her name, she looked completely blur n had no idea what her name was. When asked wat was 1 of her friend's names, she said right away but not her own name though. Funny expression...

1 guy was told that he was a big fat liar, trying to convince every1 that he was a celebrity. N wheneva he lied, his underwear would get tighter. When he was asked who he was, the guy said "Bill Clinton" Hahaha... n he started twisting n turning on his chair, unable to sit right thanks to his tightened underwear. The hypnotizer asked for his pics n autograph n the guy agreed, which added to the uncomfortableness of the tight underwear. The guy actually said that he did not have sex with Monica (I think thats what he said) Hahaha... Just so funny to see him moving about n fidgeting on his chair. Can't just sit right....

There were other funny stuffs like a few guys were told to imagine themselves as ballerinas which they did dance ballet in a horrifying manner. Hahaha.. 2 girls were told that they were seat belts n wheneva the word safety was said, they would fling themselves to people next to them (as many as possible, right on their lap) to keep them safe. Well, they are safety belts after all. Hahaha... Wat else? Oh ya, they were told to imagine themselves at an MTV dance competition n only that few guys could come down stage to earn extra points to win that competition n get paid as well, if the audience as willing to. The extent that they go to with their dances just to win... My... N another 1 was a guy who was told to imagine he was in elementary school n he brought his pet monkey to school, shouting out "who wants to pet my monkey" wheneva the word BSU is said. After shouting that line, the guy would feel that he's no more an elementary student n that he would feel embarrassed for doing wateva he did... Haha...

The whole show was comedic because the hypnotizer was comedic. COme to think about it, it made me wonder - to trust my eyes or to trust reason. How true is the power of hypnotism? If it is genuine, how much of power that it exerts? Although i saw hypnotism with my own bare eyes, i could still hardly convince myself that everything was true... Empiricism (experience/senses) vs rationalism (reason/facts)? What do you think?

Back from Devil's Lake

I'm back from Devil's Lake State Park, Wisconsin. The trip was fun although I didn't get to climb as much as I anticipated. It was my first rock climbing experience. My, were the rocks slippery... & I broke my record! Of wat? Of NOT BATHING FOR 3 DAYS!!! I usually bathe twice a day but having not to bathe for that long of time, this was my first time. We had no choice cos they locked the bathing toilet. THe only toilet which was open was the 'natural' one where they had toilet seats but we can't flush. THe holes go down straight to the soil/ land. Rily yucky n disgusting...

We left BSU at 5pm and drove about 4 hours till we reached one of our leader's dad's home. We stayed in their cozy basement. That was our first "camping" night. Hahaha... Had skones, brownies, cookies etc. Quite a hearty meal i would say. Skones are rather interesting. THey look like big chunks of cookies n are soft. Heat them up in the microwave n they're just plain delicious... EVen without the microwave, they're ready to go...

Continued our journey the next morning for another 4 hours. Reached Devil's lake state park about 2.30pm. Was glad that the weather was dry. No showers. No snow. We immediately set out for hiking n climbing after we parked the van at our campsite. Climbing up the rock stairs was not an easy task, at least not for me. Was panting up the stairs n the rocks were very very slippery. Plus, my shoes didn't have all that much of a grip. Finally found a spot to rock climb/ mountain climb. Wateva it's called... Waited for the experts to hook up the lines while we put on our harness n climbing shoes. THere were 2 routes. Yi climbed first. Then me, then Fang. We didn't try the other route cos the day was getting darker n we were running out of time. Climbing 1 route usually takes about 20-30 minutes, depending on how quick the person climbs. Went back to our campsite. Set up our tents. Realized the unfortunate toilet thingey. Had a nice dinner. Dunno wat they called it. It had egg noodles with cream of mushroom, sour cream, meat etc. Pasta lookalike. We just rinsed our utensils with boiled hot water. I guess this is genuine camping. No lights, no water, no ntg. All by ourselves out in the dark. It was darn cold as hell. Below 0 celcius? about -4 or -5. We built a campfire, cozy n warm. Slept about 9.30pm. Smell burnt thanks to the fire. WE had to cram 4 people in 1 tent. Abit squishy but we made it. Wrapped ourselves in the winter bags. Woke up quite a few times through out the night. Uncomfortable... Back ached...

Day 2. Ate breakfast n set out for our climbing near the lake. Saw boy scouts n many others. More people during the weekends... FOund a spot. Hooked the lines n started climbing. Tough but fun climbing. Wish I had climbed the 2nd route cos that looks more interesting that the 1st that I tried. Anyway, my hand was running out of energy. Haha... A whole 2 hours ++ of climbing. Ate lunch n continued hiking. It was hard to find a spot for climbing cos there were too many people. Finally found 1 which was far back. Climbed the 1st route. Stuck midway cos the rocks were slippery to continue. Hardly found any hand grip. 3 of us got stuck at the same spot. Only our leader managed to climb till the top. Tried the 2nd route. Couldn't even get pass the first part. Not much hand grip. Limited leg space. Sigh... Tried 3 times n slipped/ swinged 3 times. Had to give up in the end. We were running out of time again, as usual. Back to the campsite. Ate stir fry n rice for dinner. Surrounded the campfire again. Slept about 9++ again.

Woke up the next day, ready to pack n leave. 8 hours journey back to Bemidji. Only stopped about 2-3 times for gas n toilet. Ate frozen custard on the way. Delicious.. Yum Yum! Tiring journey having to sit in the van n ntg else to do besides sleeping. Reached home about 7pm. First thing to do on the list - BATHE! We had to take turns. I was the last to bathe. Cleaned up my room first. Washed my clothes, wateva there was to wash. Haha...

THe trip was fun. I enjoyed myself despite the 'pek chek' ness. I'm kinda in love with climbing now. Don consider myself addicted yet but I may if i continue to climb, may be at the rec center. Intend to climb when i get back to Malaysia. SHould be a fun expereince... hehe...

Rock climbing at Devil's Lake

I'm gonna go rock climbing at Devil's Lake in Wisconsin from tmr till Sunday. Looking forward to the trip, esp when i'm not an outdoor person n i haven't experienced it before. Will blog about it when i come back. Will also blog about my first hypnotism experience. Not that i was hyponotized. I watched the hypnotism show/seminar. It was really cool n superb yet scary. Imagine being able to manipulate to such extent. N guess wat? Hypnotism is a branch of psychology by itself... Such irony... Will also blog about my mooncake festival celebration here in Bemidji. We had darn expensive mooncakes all the way from the cities (Minneapolis)....

Till then... Toodaloo!

Dance... a disappointed night...

I'm taking dance classes as my elective this sem & some of the dances that i've learned are waltz, foxtrot, tango, including Argentinian tango, swing, salsa n the latest - rhumba & cha cha. Well, it may sound a lot but what i've learnt are just the basics. Ntg much. Max, maybe a turn or two, that's all. N these r all partner dancing. I usually don get to practice my 'follower aka girl' steps at home cos I have to be the leader aka guy at home to practice n dance with my housemates. It's during class when i get to dance as a follower. Because this is a 'relaxing' physical ed class, i suppose the teachers (a pair of husband n wife) aren't strict with us. They focus more on having fun instead of skills, perfromance etc. I guess it's just the expectation and standards difference that we have. Bear in mind that this is a basic's class & not everyone has the same pace. So, i am the 1 who should adjust n not judge the class based on my expectations. I was kinda hoping for more...

It was compulsory for us to attend dance parties organized by the teachers. So, we went last Saturday. To me, it was a disappointment. Why? To begin with, I was frustrated with the proper attire. The theme was balck n white n it wasn't a jeans occassion. Not that it's hard to find such colors or clothing, i just somehow couldn't find suitable ones. I wore my white summer dress in the end which I wasn't satisfied with. It was cold n skirts wasn't rily in my initial plan. Plus, i just feel 'huge/fat' from waist up wearing that dress. Sigh... Anyway, what made me disappointed was that the party lacked of guys, or should i say lacked of ppl that I know. We were sitting with our Asian bunch n most of the people came with their bunch or their partner. Maybe it was our fault fo r not being able to blend n huha around. Through out the night, I only danced with 1 genuine guy while the rest of the time i danced as the guy with my other girl friends. Anothr thing was that the steps that we knew were very very very extremely limited - all were just plain basics. There weren't much variation. With the accumulative reason, it kinda led on to boredom. Quite a frustrating n unsatisfying night, I would say esp when I'm a dancing person n i was kinda looking forward to having fun but it didn't turn out the way I expected it to be. I have to attend another dance party. I'm gonna do research on more dance steps so that we don stick to basics n repeat the whole boring cycle...

Previously, I took latin classes & I quit when I came to US. I feel like continuing my latin dance. N now, i even wanna learn tango, esp Argentina tango (rily captivating) n swing (challenging). Call me crazy, but i'm all over partner dancing now. So, if my bf (ahem, u know who, hehe) read this, pls keep urself prepared, physical n mentally cos if ur uncomfortable with my interest, u gotta 'sacrifice' urself n learn the dance to be my partner. Hahaha...

Itasca Park

Visited Itasca on Sept 16 2006. Was finding excuses not to go (lazy...) but I went eventually. Trip organized by iVCF.

What's so interesting about Itasca Park? It's about 45 minutes to 1 hour away from Bemidji & the park is HUGE! Much much, way much bigger than Lake Titiwangsa. If u walk in there, there's a high chance of u getting lost. Ppl travel in cars to get from places to places in the park, or at least we did. Haha... There's even bears in the park. Imagine that...

Anyway, itasca has this attraction of crossing the Great Mississipi river. There's this place called headwaters where the banks between the river is closest n there are rocks for us to cross the river. So, now i can officially say that i've crossed the Great Mississipi river. Cool eh? Haha...

I think Itasca is a must place to visit during all the 4 seasons. My friends visited the park in summer, while i visited in fall. Gosh! The autumn leaves are just soooo breath-taking. Beatiful! Just amazing! I was so captivated by the colors of nature. Took dozens n dozens of pictures.

Had lunch in the park. Then, we saw the biggest white pine tree, a rily fat tree. Haha.. But of cos comparing to Malaysia's rainforest, this shouldn't account to big. Then we saw the red pine tree. In the end, we climbed up the 1000 feet firehouse. Shaky, but I still managed to reach the top. Proud of myself.. hehe...

Nice trip there. A memorable one indeed...

Will try uploading the photos soon. Maybe try to find a link or stg...

I wasn't tagged but I found it interesting...yet again...

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.


I miss somebody right now.

I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I'm currently single. (Haha...)
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat. (maybe)
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone. (in Malaysia)
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at a McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (half-half)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. (not sure)
I went college out of state. (KL and Klang?)
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people. (Celebs?)
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy !!!
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie...

I tag Hau Chun, Val, Mel, Deb & Hau Wei.

Beginning of Fall'06

My last semester for my undergraduate degree has finally begun. Summer seemed to have just passed by me; time does fly...

I'm taking 15 credits this sem. Not alot for a semester but the credits included 7 subjects - 4 psych subs, 2 physical ed & 1 preinternship. So far, things have been going on quite well. Nothing much to 'fan' about. Homework has not rily catch up on me, so i still have time to relax & treat my self to House MD (esp my Dr.Chase!)...

Previously, I was in a very huge dilemma. What are my plans after my undergrad? Grad school? Work? Intern? OPT? Rily had a tough time deciding... Initially, I had my target set into entering grad school in fall'07 in US. Then, i found out that there were tonnes of hassle & procedures to go through & I wasn't even sure of wat I wanted to major in. I may very well be intrested in clinical psych, but I was uncertain of what the route would lead me to. Plus, things were too rushing. I wasn't even prepared for my GRE. Visa was another problem. All these hadn't come in mind earlier. So, in a way, it was too rushing... After much much much contemplation, I've finally decided to return to Malaysia, at least for a year or 2, to find opportunities of exposure n experience in the field of clinical psych. Then, from there, I shall decide further whether to continue with masters in this area. One thing for sure, my ultimate goal is to obtain a masters in psychology!!!

Too stupid to own a computer!

This is a conversation that I copied from Neng's blogpage. I found it funny & interesting. Enjoy...

"This is something I got in an e-mail from my uncle. It's about the stupidest things phone operators hear. This one took the cake. Apparently, it's a true convo that was picked out of the archive of recorded conversations between Word Perfect customers with the customer service attendant. According to the email, the employee was sacked in the end for being wise. Sigh. Life."

(Quote: Shang Neng)

Operator: "Ridge Hall, computer assistance; may I help you?"

Caller: "Yes, well, I'm having trouble with WordPerfect."

Operator: "What sort of trouble??"

Caller: "Well, I was just typing along, and all of a sudden the words went away."

Operator: "Went away?"

Caller: "They disappeared."

Operator: "Hmm So what does your screen look like now?"

Caller: "Nothing."

Operator: "Nothing??"

Caller: "It's blank; it won't accept anything when I type."

Operator: "Are you still in WordPerfect, or did you get out??"

Caller: "How do I tell?"

Operator: "Can you see the C: prompt on the screen??"

Caller: "What's a sea-prompt?"

Operator: "Never mind, can you move your cursor around the screen?"

Caller: "There isn't any cursor: I told you, it won't accept anything I type."

Operator: "Does your monitor have a power indicator??"

Caller: "What's a monitor?"

Operator: "It's the thing with the screen on it that looks like a TV. Does it have a little light that tells you when it's on??"

Caller: "I don't know."

Operator: "Well, then look on the back of the monitor and find where the power cord goes into it. Can you see that??"

Caller: "Yes, I think so."

Operator: "Great. Follow the cord to the plug, and tell me if it's plugged into the wall.

Caller: "Yes, it is."

Operator: "When you were behind the monitor, did you notice that there were two cables plugged into the back of it, not just one??"

Caller: "No."

Operator: "Well, there are. I need you to look back there again and find the other cable."

Caller: "Okay, here it is."

Operator: "Follow it for me, and tell me if it's plugged securely into the back of your computer."

Caller: "I can't reach."

Operator: "Uh huh. Well, can you see if it is??"

Caller: "No."

Operator: "Even if you maybe put your knee on something and lean way over??"

Caller: "Oh, it's not because I don't have the right angle - it's because it's dark."

Operator: "Dark??"

Caller: "Yes - the office light is off, and the only light I have is coming in from the window."
Operator: "Well, turn on the office light then."

Caller: "I can't."

Operator: "No? Why not??"

Caller: "Because there's a power failure."

Operator: "A power......... A power failure? Aha, Okay, we've got it licked now.

Do you still have the boxes and manuals and packing stuff your computer came in??"

Caller: "Well, yes, I keep them in the closet."

Operator: "Good. Go get them, and unplug your system and pack it up just like it was when you got it. Then take it back to the store you bought it from."

Caller: "Really? Is it that bad?"

Operator: "Yes, I'm afraid it is."

Caller: "Well, all right then, I suppose. What do I tell them??"

Operator: "Tell them you're too f*%ing stupid to own a computer!!!!!"

Visiting Ms Shin Yee Tan in Goshen

Finally, I have the time & mood to blog further. As I've previously 'promised', I shall blog about my visit to Goshen, Indiana.

My trip to Goshen was a mere 5 days - 2 days of transport, 1 day of being at home as Shin was working, 1 day of my not feeling well, & 1 official day of my exploring the area. Goshen is a small, slow-paced, intact town. Very similar to Bemidji, I would say. The population's bigger than Bemidji though. However, BSU has roughly 4,000 students while Goshen college only has about 700 students (according to Shin). Then again, the comparison isn't fair cos BSU's a state university while Goshen college's a private one (I think). Anyway, I left Bemidji in the morning & reached Chicago airport around 4.30pm. Took Coach USA all the way to Southbend. If I had known earlier that there was a direct plane to Southbend, I wouldn't have bought an airticket to Chicago. Well, I guess Shin & I had some miscommunication in between. What has been done, has been done. Haha... Tiring journey, all by myself... When I reached Southbend, Shin & her friend soooo coincidently reached the bus stop/ airport as well. Erm... truthfully, I didn't feel all that supposed excitement, most probably due to the tiring plane n bus ride. Shin had all the excitement & enthusiasm. My apology on this... Stayed over at Shin's rented house. I wouldn't call it rent at all! Seems that the owner of the house seldom leaves in that huge house (which feels similar to a bungalow) & that Shin & her friends can stay in the house through out the whole summer without having to pay a single cent - no house rent, no utilities payment. All they have to do is just to housekeep the house. Wow! What a SUPERB deal!!! Issh.. I wish I had that (cos I have to so pay for my rent in my Bemidji house..)

Shin had to work the next day. So, I stayed at home the whole day. Watching tv, exercising, eating, reading my Tami Hoag's "Lucky's Lady", my first ever love novel read in standard 6 (12 yrs old). I'm rereading it after 8/9 years? Haha.. Ate at a Korean restaurant for dinner. Nice meal. Loved it. Awesome! The one with loads of vege's mine while the soup's Shin's.





























The next day, we were suppose to take a walk around the campus & do other stuffs (e.g. badminton) but unfortunately, I was down with my once in a while sickness. I have no idea how or why, but I just succumbed to my worst enemy. So, we had no choice but to stay at home the whole day. Did I faint? You guys gotta ask Shin that cos she was there all the time. haha... Played pictionary at night.


Day 4 - We toured around the campus & the neighbourhood. Not bad place. The people there have very strong religious identities. Ate at this Amish pie place. Healthy & delicious meal! Visited an Amish home at night. Amish is a special culture at one end of Goshen (I think). They are quite 'conservative' people who do not use today's technology. No cars, no electricity (including lights, washing machine etc), customary clothings, & NO PICTURES! Weird? I wouldn't say weird.. Interesting would be a more apprpriate word? For the first time in my life, I drank fresh milk milked from the cow! Too delicious to be true!!! Full of cream... I have no specific word to describe that astounded feeling I had when I had my first taste of the milk. Just plain yummy! I sooo wish I had another chance to it. Will be one of the best memories in my life... Had a nice time with the Amish family. Shin & i talked for long hours during the night, sleeping only about 3am. Shin said that she was quite disappointed during her recent trip back to Malaysia cos there was too little time to spend with the bunch of friends. Sigh... She took out the 'diary/autograph' that she gave around people to write during form 5. Such sweet reminiscence. All the sweet memories came flooding back. The days in high school... Precious memories.. Looking at all the pictures, we started with how we got to know each other, beginning the story since form 1 till form 5; our conflicts in between esp in form 2; all the projects that we did together - geography bentuk muka bumi in f2 in my house (the day when i called hc & officially became his friend), wedding project for PMR in f3, biology hand bone stucture using plaster & flour in f4, biology board, Bancruptcy (maths project) which was similar to monopoly, moral banner project in f5 - the times we cried together when were unable to carry out the project as intended and yet we always manage to persist & the outcomes were desirable. My position as ketua keceriaan, suan's as ketua kebersihan & always had to make sure students in charge throw away the rubbish at the end of the day, Cham's position as ketua disiplin, Sze, Deb & May in the prefects board & committee. How Shin, Suan & I quit our prefects' position... How the junior prefects, in particular QYS, were afraid to approach our class esp Suan for our misbehavior... N mel with her chikwando & prayer/sembahyang during assembly time (action of 'chinese god rasuk the body' shown by Shin, haha...) Hanging out during recess time with Pei Khee & gang at the canteen, eating nasi lemak, keropok, hotdog, waffle etc. Also, the girlguide camp that we had in school - how we cooked maggi mee when the fire didn't help the juniors in their meal... The times we ran out of class to take pictures esp during the last few months before SPM... Even as I'm typing all this, all the memories are rushing through my head. Makes me feel old in a way, having to know that we've gone through so much together.

Last day. I had to leave Goshen in the morning cos of my scheduled flight. We both were in the verge of tears, not knowing when will be our next time of seeing each other. With a heavy heart, I went up the bus, waving goodbyes & hugging Shin. As the bus left, I turned back & waved as much goodbye to Shin... Heavy emotions... Very heavy indeed... Well, i guess life's like that. We meet, get to know each other & move on with our lives. I believe we will one day meet again, definitely, no doubt. I even told Shin that when I have children in the future, I want the 7 sisters (6 of cos) to be my child's kai ma. Haha.. Abit too far, yes I know.. But no harm done to have that intention even from now... I think at this point, some frienships do last forever. We don't have to always be in each other's range of sight but we'll always have a place in each other's heart...

One word to Shin (if you're reading my blog) - You're a strong girl, inside & outide. Either I believe in that opinion myself or you don't realize it yourself. I know you'll be able to achieve your dream cos you have that 'Ummph' in you! You're probably the strongest among us 7. Even when you lack of faith in yourself, don't forget that you have your family & us to support you. At least, you'll have me on your back. Go ahead! Step forward! Reach for what you want... Cos YOU CAN!

Pictures of my trip to Goshen can be seen in facebook.com (if you have an account there). I think that page is only valid for those who has an American university's email, if i'm not mistaken. I dunno where else to upload the pics cos friendster's taking forever.... Tell me if u guys have some place for me to upload by just ticking on the pics instead of browsing one by one.

That's all for now. Cheerio!

Still exploring

I'm still very new towards blogspot & I hardly know how to edit my blogpage. I'm even having trouble with my tagboard & links. Dunno whether my decision to switch from friendster's blog over to this site is prudent in the first place. Anyway, what has been chosen, has been chosen. I shall continue with it one way or another. Heck, I'll find out one fine day. It'll take some time but I know I will.. somehow, someday.. Haha...

I mentioned that I was gonna blog about my visiting Shin in Goshen in beginning of August but I haven't even till now. It's been a month already. My, time flies... I shall update regarding that blog soon... Real soon...

As for now, I'm still exploring blogspot while plucking my eyebrows (haha...) & listening to Jay Zhou's new album. Not bad songs, I would say. 'QIan Li Zi Wai' is an interesting song by Jay feat. Fei Yu Qing (a 1960/70s Taiwan singer). A whole new fresh blend of modern pop & oldies.

K... That's all for now. Will c whether i'll have the time to update tmr. Toodaloo!